We still have not had sex and it's been like 3 weeks now. I do need to know what is going on. Lately, it's been because his shoulder is in enormous pain and his stomach has been ill for a week. I can understand not feeling romantic because of physical pain, but I wonder also if it's more than that. He did make out with me some last night. I felt conflicted feelings, but I still wanted to, regardless.

This is confusing. To feel pushed away and repelled because of abusive behaviors, and to feel drawn to him for other reasons. Oh boy. I guess this is exactly what it's like when you're inside the situation - conflicted feelings and confusion.

I still stand my ground though, regardless of these feelings, and I will follow through on what I say.