feel like crying today because of all the nightmares. no self harm nightmares but nightmares about being schizophrenic (i definitely am not), hearing things, seeing things in my room and in the house that i think were just part of my dreams because i've never had a problem before. i was trying to scream and cry but i couldn't. i couldn't wake up my boyfriend either even though i was trying to. i asked him this morning if i had talked to him and he said no. so he didn't hear me when i was trying to get his attention, i must just have been sleeping. awful.

it looks like my moods are based on the sleep of the night before. no bad dreams equals ok mood, bad dreams equals terrible mood. sucks.

EDIT: starting IOP on Monday. Dr is prescribing minipress for nightmares seeing how they are so connected to my moods. No other med changes right now.