Gabyunbound 
I could have written your first sentences last week. Oh sheesh, the pangs of such loneliness! I hope it all eases up for you very much, very soon!!
Around here, things have generally improved. I started taking my PRN Abilify. I've got it around, and the deal is to add it into the regimen to catch things before they totally get stuck in the ditch.
I've been back to work, but only a little (it'll go back to regular schedule next week). It has been great seeing everyone, but there is a very steep learning curve on some new software, and other new operating systems. The software is basically a nightmare for me. But I am trying very, very diligently. I love my job, and sure AF do not wish to have to look for another. So I am ALL IN towards making this work.