I appreciate you reading my big long message and taking the time to read it thankyou.
It's just when you said " All of you do behave like children." I felt really judge and hurt and ashamed. I don't feel heard at all. I understand that may be you hold vaules of a house hold and family dearly in your heart. I can see and appreciate that.
But at the same time I feel not heard at all just judge. I would really appreciate it if I could explain the situation clearly without being judged.
Thank you.

As to your question who pays for food, therapy and the goverment.
I do get money from the goverment for my mental health. The goverment hear supports free therapy here is your mental health is really bad. So that's how I've been able to get to therapy.
My partner and I pay for our own food.

I haven't been able to work for 4 years because I had unhelpful thoughts that risk taking my life and self harm. The frist 2 years of therapy I was given a student therapist that didn't have experience or skills to help me with my daignoses. At the time I didnt know you could change therapist or speak to people further up. It was very much they don't let you know you have these rights as a client. So all I could do was give a letter to my therapist to read because I try verbally to him but he didnt seem to understand. He eventually graduated after 2 years. Those 2 years affected my mental health greatly made my symptoms worse.
Well it seem finally the mental health system notice this. So I was given a lovely, skilled psychologist. The treatment program I undergo to treatment for Borderline personality disorder which is called Dailet Behaviour Therapy. The treatment is roughly 2 years.
You go to group therapy which is DBT group therapy every once a week for 2 hours and then individual therapy during that week for an hour. So it's pretty full on.
That why it had taken me 4 years to get where I am to be ready to work again. I hope that makes things more clearly.