I have that same question. I am taking a leave of absence. I don't know my plans. I don't even know if I have the right job for me. I'm scared that all I'll be is a.... I can't bring myself to type it. I feel lost and alone.

And I have been keeping the sui thoughts to myself. I barely told my t. How can I tell my parents. I did tell my sister.

I don't know what to do. I'm scared that I'll need to be hospitalized, like I always do. It's intermittent, the sui thoughts. If they were constant I'd be more concerned. I'm trying not to call my T. I don't want to hear, it's time to go in to the ER. I want the problems to disappear!