Hi, Phoenix - hope you are still feeling better than you did. I am ok today, despite having an email from my sister that has took me by surprise - she has finally revealed to me what her 'issue' is with me after years of me not having a clue ! So thats all sinking in !

I'd like to let you know that I am seeing almost daily how being with others on this forum can help me with so much, and I hope that you get that from it too.

I, also, have some difficulty in taking up space talking about myself and I have dared to do it here (so scary, so many negative thoughts about it). My experience has been that I needed to know ppl here were ok and were willing to understand me, and when I found they did, that desperateness seemed to ease and it freed me to offer support and chat to others (which I like to do).

Once you see that ppl here don't reject you and give you space, I hope you will find some of your stuff eases, at a deeper level all we want is understanding and care from somewhere - usually cos we haven't got much of it so far in our lives !

Or, because self worth is so low, it can't be seen when its staring you in the face ! I find it so hard to believe that ppl care about me and it is so hard to let it in.

I can also relate to how you feel that others will think you are making it up, or looking for attention - I still feel like I am going to be 'hauled over the coals' and asked to provide evidence every time I mention it !!

You are now, officially, not alone have some more popcorn ! hehehe..........take care, Poppet