So, I almost left my husband 6-8 months ago -- I had a plan to save $5000 in total over several months time so that I could move out in June when our apt lease ended. Then things improved and changed all for the better for the next 6 months, and I became far happier, more settled and far more hopeful.

This latest incident of him yelling at me again, for the first time in 6 months really, has set me back emotionally and propelled me forward into motion again.

I should have known or seen that this was coming again. But things were going smoothly, he was all lovey dovey with me, treating me like a princess all the time, and I felt good about things. That's when i posted on here that I was happy.

This all threw a total monkey wrench into the equation.

Last night he was very careful not to turn our tense conversation about his father being abusive into something ugly. And it could have become that, but it did not. I noticed him visibly trying not to fight or argue.

I really do not know how to feel. Should I feel somewhat hopeful? I feel more reticent than anything. I feel reserved and objective, with a very "we'll see" approach and attitude.

And he's treating me like a princess again. The contrast is too much for me to handle. At least I know my dealbreakers and when I must leave, if I must leave. That makes me feel better. But it's definitely a "wait and see" scenario.