i am sorry for everything that u are going through. it must be very difficult. i can relate to you with having to deal with physical and psychological ailments. i myself am in your boyfriends role right now. i ask my husband for a divorce and he is now severely depressed and has thoughts of suicide. he has always been dependent on me for his happiness. it is very difficult to be in this position because i do not want to hurt him, but i do want to preserve my sanity. i believe that i am not the cause of his anguish. i believe that he has some other deep rooted issues that have caused him to be dependent on me. i dont mean to imply that this is the case with u. however i will tell you that the more u smother u'r bf the more he is going to want to get away because it is very overwhelming. try to seek help with u'r T. talk to him/her about your feelings. try to do things for yourself. get use to being more independent. realize that your life is precious. that u r special just the way u are. that u do not need anyone else in your life because u can be comfortable in your own shoes and can stand on your own two feet. read the poem phenomenal woman by maya angelou, i really like it, it is very inspiring. good luck to you.