it wasn't a great day for me. i numbed out with tv. i couldn't work on any of my projects or exercise. i don't know why i couldn't shake off my mood.

regarding not being ashamed: it may not have been my fault but i can be better.

i don't know why i feel so much pain. i also don't know why i am so numb and detached.

my roommate brings over his girlfriend constantly. if i got coronavirus from her, i would not mind dying. that said, i am too afraid of social interaction to leave my room.