"I want to yell again and rip my hair out in frustration, but no one would hear me. I feel like things are so obvious how I feel and sometimes I just want someone to go, "Hey Vince, you alright? Want to talk?". I feel like I need to strap a sign around me with a sad face on it."
Woah - i said exactly the same thing about 6 months ago.....exactly. I kept having a friend online who knew how i felt (because its easier talking online) telling me to not try and win an emmy with my acting and tell people. But i honestly felt i was! I told my counsellor that i felt i had 2 weeks to live.....what does she do, says i might benefit from a low mood group! I would hint massively at my parents, plus be crying on the phone pretty much all the time but they still didn't get it. The day before i gave up and decided to go to hospital i felt like i was screaming for help but noone was hearing me, and i got to the point where i no longer felt i should tell anyone else. I mean how hard is it to see someone needs help if they're talking around bad subjects?!
Then that day i had a choice, and i decided to tell one more person but this time explicitly how i felt. And i was blessed with being taken to hospital where i desperately needed to go at the time.
My parents always say that i'm getting better at talking but still not great but personally i didn't feel i could make it anymore clear.
Sorry that was all about me, i just want you to know that you aren't alone in having those feelings.
take care