I feel a lot better after my first night at IOP. I spent all night in fear and fitful sleep because I kept having auditory hallucinations. I kept hearing footsteps. I have never heard that before so I don’t think it’s a house issue. I also heard my son, twice. Once it sounded like he called out for help so I rushed to his room but he was asleep. Then in the muddle of the night I heard him say “hi mommy” but he wasn’t there. I also had an olfactory hallucination. I smelled this sickly sweet smell which I eventually identified as the ylang ylang oil I use in my diffuser, but it was in the living room. I was pretty terrified all night. I’m scared for the dark tonight already. I think it’s coming from all the nightmares. I hope I get in touch with the new dr soon and get minipress. I’m still hoping to go on seroquel as well, at least for sleep.

We went on a walk yesterday and found a perfectly good bike out in the trash, perfect size for my son! The woman at the house said we could take it. He still doesn’t know how to ride a bike even though he’s nine. He’s just scared of getting hurt. But he rode it a little with RS holding him so I have hope! Not supposed to really warm up here until Thursday so no walks for me again until then.