I wore a necklace yesterday that was given to me by an ex abuser. What's strange is that I had terrible dreams all night about that ex abuser, while wearing the necklace still. Weird. That's the first time that's happened. It was disturbing and upsetting.

My heart feels heavy this morning. Nothing new there, but I felt better yesterday. I guess this is how it's going to be for now -- carrying a heavy heart with loads on my mind.