Dechan Dawa, it's never ok for a therapist to advise a client to stop taking their medication, regardless of what the client tells them. That is beyond their scope of practice and unethical. They can suggest a client speak to the prescriber if they have concerns, but the therapist is not competent to address those concerns unless they happen to be a psychiatrist or psychiatric nurse practitioner who is also providing therapy.

As for crisis hotlines, those will actually call the cops on you for a welfare check if you say the sorts of things OP said. I don't think that would be a very good solution. OP was also motivated, according to his own account, to say the things he did in hopes of provoking particular responses from his therapist. This is not at all unusual. I do the same thing, although not with threatening or insinuating I might kill myself. But the point I'm trying to make is that OP really wanted to communicate with his therapist, not some random stranger on a hotline.

My post wasn't about shaming OP or trying to make him feel bad. Nobody is perfect and I'm the last person to claim I'm some sort of model client. I'm pretty manipulative and a bit of a nightmare. It just didn't seem like OP was aware of how his actions likely came across. It's really unfortunate that he didn't anticipate the consequences of his behavior.

OP, I'm also concerned based on your last reply that you're taking what's happened and telling yourself that you're helpless to prevent the same thing from happening again. I think that's a cognitive distortion. It is certainly true that you cannot control what a future therapist or psychiatrist does. However, how they respond to you does not occur in a vacuum - your actions do have an impact. I am struck by the way you have phrased several of your actions because it is clear they were designed to provoke your therapist into specific responses. This is manipulative and people really don't like such transparent attempts to manipulate them. I'm not sitting on some high horse and judging you for it - as I've already mentioned, I can be very manipulative myself. It's something I struggle with when I feel threatened by someone. Judging by everything you've said, it sounds like you have a tendency towards emotional manipulation to get certain needs met. This is not unusual, although other people who do the same thing tend to have a lot of trouble in interpersonal relationships. I think this strategy/method of coping just backfired on you this time. But that doesn't mean you can't be more aware of how what you're saying will be received. For example, if you want to express thoughts about dying but you don't want the recipient to interpret what you're saying as suicidal intent, you now know it's important to spell that out.

Anyway, I'm rambling at this point. I hope you don't rule out seeking help in the future and I certainly hope you haven't just stopped your wellbutrin and anything else you're on because you've decided you never want to see anyone else in the mental health field ever again. In my experience, going off meds is rough and can cause a temporary increase in suicidal thoughts. Please take care.