I had a much better night. No hallucinations. I had one (heard the chairs moving) but I just told myself it’s not real and it can’t hurt me. It went away. At one point I was falling asleep and my boyfriend tickled my feet by accident and I freaked out. But he was still awake so he reassured it was him. It caused me to have a hard time falling back asleep. I was very scared and tried to cuddle in my blanket but it was too hot so I had to either take my blanket off my head or I had to stick my feet out, both of which scared me. But I did do better, I didn’t have any nightmares and I stayed asleep for the most part. So I’m happy.
I feel much better today. I’m not sad. But I’m a little scared and paranoid. I’m not sure why. That’s another reason I want to start seroquel. I don’t think haldol is working anymore.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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