I do have slow self esteem and I'm scared of losing friends too after my bestfriend abandoned me last year. .. I'm rationalising his behaviour because he also told since 1-2 months youve changed - like I guess I've - we had some rights in last 2-3 months where I over reacted ik and I'm struggling with my mental health. So could be I've become more clingy or something to him.... or maybe he is just annoyed by me as he drifted apart after fights.... He did message me something yesterday, I replied okay. I haven't messaged him since then and for a few days I won't. After that maybe I'll tell him it was mean and it bothered me. Idk I just don't want the friendship to end you know. I don't want to stay on bad terms with anyone.