My brother committed suicide and it would be 8 years may 18, around 2-3 weeks later i started to drink heavy. one Day i got drunk and cursed my wife which i so much regret, that's when she left me. our lease was expiring in July so we moved separately, for around 4 years we where still going out and spending family time with our kids and her family. she has made it clear that she has moved on. i knew she was seeing someone and last week i find out he moved in with her. I was sober for 12 days after that I only lasted 14 in total, one of my biggest problem is letting her go, we still married and we being in each other's life for 35 years. the longest i stood without contact was for one month maybe 2. I need to let go..