I spoke with my therapist today. He was very helpful and we scheduled another call for next Wed.

I feel encouraged by his words. He said I am very brave to be facing all that I am, though I don't feel brave. I need more courage. I am resolute in what I need and want to do, but I need the courage.

I am feeling less and less like there's any hope. I really think he will refuse therapy and that he'll refuse to see he has a problem OR that he IS the problem.

I am most saddened by this thought.