I am sure people are experiencing a lot of weird things in lockdown.

I have a lot of brothers...and one I had been estranged from for years. After lockdown I sent everyone I knew a text just asking how everyone was doing. So I sent him a text.

This resulted in suddenly getting a lot of gmails from him. I was trying to get along with him because he is a complicated person. Still is. Suddenly...in the middle of emailing back and forth he just vanished. And I guess that put me in a bad mood. I kind of got pulled in and then dropped. Am I surprised?

No. He does this. He has done this in the past. I guess I just got pulled in more than usual because of being lonely and in lockdown.

I am now coming up with a new plan...getting back to projects and other things I have going on...and less contact with my family of origin because they are very...uneven in their contact. It will be a lot of contact. Then no contact.

I am sure other people are going through similar stuff. I think people are bored so are just...maybe communicating with anyone. This brother suddenly started a blog, a new Facebook page, and a new Instagram page. He is overwhelming on his social media. He also keeps posting pictures from the past. I don't want pictures of me showing up on his accounts...from when I was a baby, a little girl, a teenager.

This is why I was complaining about social media and such. I am so done. I am going to try to get out more and get active. I need to clear my head of all this stuff.

It is worst when one is alone and has no one to process all this crap with. I have turned off the news and am taking a break from it except for important headlines.

Everyone I know is posting a lot more on all their social media accounts, too. Really, I wish someone would just pick up the phone.


THAT'S ALL. NO MORE COMPLAINING. I HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE VOTE OF CONFIDENCE AND NOW I HAVE TO LIVE UP TO IT. GETTING MY RUNNING SHOES ON AND GOING OUTSIDE!!!