This may should not be here and I dont know how to express this and vent. I know people lose love ones in many ways. I lost my grandpa due to suicide. He didn't want to live anymore. He lost his wife 3yrs ago and his daughter my aunt has some type of brain cancer. I know if this bother my life style need to bring up in meeting with psychatrist. Has anyone ever had a hard time losing a love one to suicide. It kinda like a part of you is missing and not the right way to go. If it was heart attack or just old age and die in his sleep guess I have a hard time letting go