thanks guys, thats really good advice.

i just slipped up had major binge of a whopping 3000 calories (more than ive had since this cake incident!)

Its difficult though to say to family that what they have made is 'junk' food, i just find it so hard and end up lying through my teeth saying yum thankyou and then losing it when i get home... i will try your advice tommorrow razzle and see how it goes as im going to visit family and am not planning on eating much after tonights escapades.

yep one day at a time.. one hour at a time.. one breath at a time for me right now, ive got palpitations and chest pain.... i really am on the road to recovery because i know this behaviour must end. i cant handle it for much longer. the recovery road is so long and winding.