I'd say You need to forget the married guy as it simply cannot work out. If You Don't feel like You can do that, perhaps it's Time to see a Therapist or talk to Him/Her about ALL of this! Definitely give it a Thought. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @Aviza, your Family, your Friends, these two Guys You like and ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND AND WONDERFUL FRIEND?!