My pdoc cancelled our online appointment ten minutes before it was supposed to begin. Emergency meeting. This frustrated me greatly as I really needed his feedback on my sudden emergence of serious symptoms yesterday. Most likely brought on by anew pain killer. The earliest I can see him next is in a week but I’m on the cancellation list.

This morning my symptoms had eased but they returned this afternoon but not as bad. My fatigue is off the charts though. I’m agitated and ranting when given the chance. Getting down about my physical situation. Thankfully my T checked up on me today so I don’t feel so alone in all this. My thoughts drive me mad, and being practically bedridden I have way too much time with them. I took a tonne of Seroquel tonight so hopefully I will be calm and then unconscious soon. I can’t take much more of this. I don’t know what to do. Hoping tomorrow brings better things or I’m going to break soon.