Depression is not good today. Plus I’m very irritable. I dint take haldol yesterday because it’s making me restless and not helping with paranoia but I think I need it just to keep the irritation and agitation down. That sucks.

I may not see IOP apn till next week. I’m upset. I wanted to see him ASAP. I need something. Minipress, and something for the paranoia and hallucinations. Yesterday I was getting so upset with all the noise from my job and from my group. I just didn’t want to listen to all the voices. It was like they were hurting my head. I can talk one on one with my therapist and boyfriend and son, individually, but I was getting overwhelmed with all the voices at once. This has happened to me before when I was in a very dark, psychotic place. So I’m hoping to nip it in the bud. I will continue with haldol despite the restlessness until someone tells me not to.