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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
Depression is not good today. Plus I’m very irritable. I dint take haldol yesterday because it’s making me restless and not helping with paranoia but I think I need it just to keep the irritation and agitation down. That sucks.
I may not see IOP apn till next week. I’m upset. I wanted to see him ASAP. I need something. Minipress, and something for the paranoia and hallucinations. Yesterday I was getting so upset with all the noise from my job and from my group. I just didn’t want to listen to all the voices. It was like they were hurting my head. I can talk one on one with my therapist and boyfriend and son, individually, but I was getting overwhelmed with all the voices at once. This has happened to me before when I was in a very dark, psychotic place. So I’m hoping to nip it in the bud. I will continue with haldol despite the restlessness until someone tells me not to.
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Sorry to hear about your struggles. In general, I don't do well with lots of people around me. It's even worse for me when I am experiencing paranoia and hallucinations, so I can somewhat relate to what you're going through. It's a sh_tty feeling.
BTW, I actually learned the other day that akathisia can either cause or exacerbate depression, specifically in terms of suicidal thoughts. It's one of the few cognitive side effects that come with akathisia. So, you might want to look into akathisia symptoms in case you're getting akathisia from the Haldol that's worsening your depression.
Is there any way you can tell your IOP nurse that you need to see him ASAP because it's urgent? If you haven't asked, definitely try asking because the worst thing he can do is say, "no, sorry. You have to wait until next week. But here are some things you could try doing: [insert stuff here]"