I need strength and courage. I do not want to end up like that woman on my Facebook group. This could happen in a month or six months from now. Maybe I'm going about it the wrong way, but is there really a right way or a wrong way? I don't think so. There's individual preferences. I'm doing it the way I feel best and most comfortable with. Who knows? Maybe three weeks from now I will feel differently, I don't know, and maybe I'll be done with it all at that point. A crazy, illogical part of me wants to enjoy the loving aspects I am receiving right now and fall back into it again... back into love, like falling backwards into a soft cushion. It does feel good.

I feel a bit crazy. My emotions are all over the place.