Sorry to hear about your struggles. In general, I don't do well with lots of people around me. It's even worse for me when I am experiencing paranoia and hallucinations, so I can somewhat relate to what you're going through. It's a sh_tty feeling.

BTW, I actually learned the other day that akathisia can either cause or exacerbate depression, specifically in terms of suicidal thoughts. It's one of the few cognitive side effects that come with akathisia. So, you might want to look into akathisia symptoms in case you're getting akathisia from the Haldol that's worsening your depression.

Is there any way you can tell your IOP nurse that you need to see him ASAP because it's urgent? If you haven't asked, definitely try asking because the worst thing he can do is say, "no, sorry. You have to wait until next week. But here are some things you could try doing: [insert stuff here]"