(( nowheretorun )) i've already told people i won't use violence over this and neither should they....nor should they be confrontational.

at one point the cops had enough to charge him but a few (well-meaning if none too bright) friends lost it and physically threatened him so the case had to be dropped. he waited til the time limit on his bail conditions ran out and started again.

i've spent all day telling friends to keep cool over this for my sake.

i do have pepper spray...the cops also brought me personal alarms, emergency numbers etc...

...and details of self-defence classes i've already told them i don't wanna be violent unless i absolutely have to to protect myself...the man is obviously sick and needs help...

i told the police today...if it comes to a choice between jailing him and sectioning him under the mental health act...please section him instead of jail, he needs that help bad.

and i know this won't last forever....i just had to get it out on the boards as an alternative to taking it out on myself...don't wanna revisit those bad old days.

i will stay strong even though it's hard...and i will keep coming here...and strange as it may sound to you...perhaps this is a challenge to make me stronger, wiser, more compassionate? can that happen?

thank you for being here to help, it does make me less scared.