Hello Lasyfruit: I did not vote in your poll since I have no idea what your sexual orientation may be. My personal opinion is this is something you would need to explore with the help of a mental health therapist who is experienced in working with people who have sexual orientation concerns. Anything any of us, here on PC, are going to say is going to be simply a guess based on almost no information. I did notice, however, this is your first post here on PC. So I thought I would at least welcome you to Psych Central.

Here are links to 3 "Ask the Therapist" columns, from Psych Central's archives, where individuals wrote to ask if they might be gay or have HOCD. Perhaps the replies the therapists wrote can be of some help:

I Can't Tell If I'm Gay or Not (HOCD) - Ask the Therapist

Do I have HOCD? - Ask the Therapist

Do I Have HOCD? - Ask the Therapist

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.