A few days after I cancelled the online counselling session through my employer benefits, I'm feeling satisfied for taking a decisive action. I never did disclose to my supervisor what's going on, other than saying I'm having a hard time dealing with the anxiety over the pandemic. So she directed me all the services in our benefits. I will mention to her to not do that again.

I am someone who believes in being honest, but not fully disclose. If I'm unable to be on my A-game, I will mention I'm having a tough time, that's all. My supervisor is doing her best and going by company policy.

The conversation with the counsellor started with me wishing her a good morning, and saying that I finished work at 10pm, when I am used to started work at 4am, so I feel a bit tired.
She said replied with we only have 45 minutes so lets not waste any time.

I lost interest 30 seconds into the conversation, so the rest of the sessions were cancelled. That wasn't my irritable bipolar reaction, the counsellor was just plain rude!