hi and welcome! i think it's great that your father is there for you right now
as far as wanting to go home...no, i don't want to go "home" to what it was (that was yuck). however, i do want to go to the home that i had/have in my mind and childhood fantacies. i can so relate that. as an adult, i often want to be nurtured, calmed and taken care of...a deep longing. i hope some day we get that
again, welcome! see ya round