Work affairs are dangerous. It could cost you your job. And you are teachers in the same building, just wait when students find out. Ouch. Not worth it. And if his wife finds out she might come after you, you’ve no idea what kind of person she is.

I’d not base my personal life decisions on what I find on google. “If it’s on the internet it must be true”. Nah

I’d also watch amount of alcohol, most of your affair events happened after you were drinking and if you are on meds it’s possibly mixing with it clouding your judgement. It sounds that you are experiencing infatuation. I’d speak to your doctor about danger of mixing alcohol with meds and speak to your therapist about all of this

Oh I really doubt you love this guy you drink and kiss in a car more than anyone. It’s unconditional? Nah, It doesn’t work this way .

I hope you continue working with therapist/doctor and maybe see couples therapist with your husband if you want to save your marriage. Or if you want to end it. Both are ok options. Affairs don’t end well