You're not hopeless! You are a human being. You are completely valid and you're doing more than enough. I think it's sometimes hard to realise that there are lots of people that are hard to get on with. I'm also financially dependent on my family, because i'm a full time student and i don't have a source of income aside from student loans which i don't really count. Quarantine makes everything harder because you can't escape from anywhere. I don't know the rules and regulations for you but i think it adds a lot more anxiety and tension to everyone when you have to live in such a shared space. I don't want you to think that you don't have a way out, because things change and one day it'll be different.