The title says it. There's a colonoscopy Tuesday and reattachment surgery Wednesday. I did the covid-19 swab yesterday. This is great news for me!
However...
My anxiety is ramping up still and already is very high. I've tried everything I have that I can take and all I know I can do. I don't want to call or message with friends because I don't want them to know how freaked out I am. I'm worried without and above reason. It's so bad that my stomach hurts very badly. My headache is excruciating. I can only take Tylenol right now but it doesn't work, I tried three times. I'm not sleeping for two nights. I'm staying awake doing nothing until four or five then playing videogames. That does take my mind off things but only slightly. My neck hurts very badly too, because I had to stop taking my pain management supplement. I tried talking both benedryl and valerian root last night for sleep. Nothing. Took three times throughout the night and still awake. I'm shaky and tearful and worried. I am at least a little more positive knowing I can't have a bunch of visitors at the hospital. That makes me way worse with too many people around but nobody understands why that would be.