"Can you see the strengths you've displayed? "

ummmm i guess so... i dunno on the rest.
yeah, i was feeling like i did when the abuse happened. i felt i couldn't talk at all. i felt guilty for needing something different. i felt stopping the tape would be bad and felt bad for taking up her time. i just had to bear it, get it over with so i could get out of there so she wouldn't know.

i didn't want her to feel sorry for upsetting me
i didn't want her to feel put upon by my needs
i didn't want her to know i was triggered and going into a week without her help.