Conflicts are already cropping up between my siblings and me in regards to my father. I know that it will become extra stressful, not that it isn't already stressful. I'll spare people here of the details. My sister is still doing the lion's portion of the work. I am preparing letters for our dad's upcoming neurologist and psychiatrist appointments. Oh how I hope my father won't refuse to go to these appointments!!!! They are so important!

My husband is under great stress, despite not getting laid off. Actually, he now thinks being laid off or taking the package would have been the better situation. Of course with this pandemic, that would have been difficult. I really hope that a vaccine is created and distributed asap. My husband and I will be first in line to receive it.

I have decided to stop talking to my psychiatrist about our potential future move to Europe. His input makes the situation only more difficult. I'll only talk to my therapist about it. My psychiatrist has volunteered to look over the write-up I'm creating for my dad's upcoming neurologist appointment. That's kind of him. He can certainly provide input on how best to structure it (and on some content) to be as effective and helpful as possible.

Believe me when I write that my siblings and I wished our dad's LTC (Long Term Care) insurance would have paid towards the assisted living. If they did, perhaps our dad would have just stayed there permanently. At this time, I don't think our father even wants to come home. Sadly, we'd rather he not, too. The reason LTC refused is because they use the alcohol abuse as an excuse, even though our dad hasn't had a drink in almost seven months and doesn't drink at the assisted living facility. According to his policy, even mental illness would cause an exemption so that they wouldn't pay. Basically, his LTC regards these issues as the person's fault. We all know that a lot of people in this country view it that way. We will ask a lawyer if our dad should stop paying for LTC insurance, because it's obviously been a waste of money all of these years. I strongly suggest that anyone interested in buying LTC insurance read the fine print on the policy carefully. My parents meant well buying it. They didn't know how it would turn out in the end.

Hubby and I strapped ourselves down with too many projects. They must be done. There's no way of putting them off for long. Gotta go and start some.