I’d call your doctor’s office. Even during pandemics you should be able to reach someone and possibly talk on the phone or have telemedicine session with your psychiatrist. Impaired judgment could be caused by medications that perhaps need to be adjusted/doses tweaked/medications managed differently etc In addition I’d ask your doctor how those four meds interact with alcohol you consume.

I dated someone who was on anti depressants and when he mixed it with alcohol his judgement and decision making would be completely impaired. You are on four different meds, I worry that something is going wrong here and maybe meds don’t interact with each correctly and you really need help (beyond therapy).

I say it with the best intentions of helping you and the kids to get out of potentially dangerous and chaotic situations