Wishing my T appointment was this week, but alas, it is a week and a half away. There is SO much in my head that it just might explode. I'm not up to talking about it all here.

I'm kind of unsure how I feel about a tele-T-appt.. It's not so much the tele part itself, but that because people are home, I don't have the sense of privacy I would at the office. Do I make a tent of covers?(!) (Kidding? Maybe?) I don't know.

I should probably let rip on paper, just dump it all out, then shred it. It's been a very long time since I've had a T appointment. Like a year and a half I think?(!) Gah. Can it really be that long?!

I'm not sure I like the new situation. The people are fine (I saw them for a short time a few years ago), but the newer insurance sees psychiatry as a short term thing. This of course makes no sense for certain dxs. I don't get it, but there ya have it. It's all well and good when I'm doing well, but...

I'm just kind of babbling. I've got a lot of anxiety going about this situation. I am firm in my mind on one count. The rest is a jumble of contrary emotions.