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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I woke up feeling like I NEED to self harm. Not sure if it was something in my dreams or not. I can’t remember having a bad dream but maybe I did. Right now I’m fighting it because it doesn’t make sense. But my chest is tight and I feel like I’m freaking out. I took my morning dose of haldol so I’m hoping that calms the agitation. I’m sure it will. I just have to wait it out.
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I think it's great you're able to recognize that the urge doesn't make sense. Perhaps your urges come down to the fact you're just anxious and agitated and subconsciously want a distraction or relief of some sort. It really does sound stress related, based on what you've been posting over the past month.
All that said, have you thought about playing games with your son for 30 mins in the middle of the day or doing something with RS to release some stress? For many people, it can help to socialize for as little as 15 mins, even if you're stuck in quarantine. Heck, you can use Zoom, Google Hangouts, FB video chat, Skype, etc. to talk to people if no one is around. I am certain you have a lunch break during the day, no? Do something you genuinely enjoy during that break. If you've got frozen food, just pop a meal in the microwave for 1-3 mins and spend the rest of your lunch break with RS, your son, etc..