I have that disconnect between my story and my emotions. I can sit there and report this really awful stuff that happened, but don't feel anything. I guess I feel fear that I'm telling, but that's about it. And sometimes, not even that. I'm scared to feel the feelings - but it's really a non-issue, because I don't seem to have any way to access them anyhow.

As for the memory stuff.... in my experience, the memories come when I'm ready for them. Well, I don't know if I'm ready for them - but they come in their own time. I would personally be scared to use EMDR or any other technique to try to pull them out before I'm ready. I feel like I don't remember the details for a reason. That's just me and my experience, though.

What do YOU want to do? It's up to YOU.