Thanks for posting this, DechanDawa. Sorry I'm a little late replying, I'm not on this sub-forum very often.

I can relate. I was already fairly isolated - but I had a few things that kept me sane, a few places I could go, or friends that I could connect with, even if it was just having lunch once a year

And, I'm an introvert... at first, I was fine. I was already working from home, so there wasn't a huge change there.

But more and more... I'm just feeling worn down. Not having anyone I can really talk openly with, being very fatigued and tired, just wanting to stay in bed all the time. My job is stressful, I had been planning to look for a new one just before this happened (ha!) and was trying to figure out how to get out more and maybe make new friends. I had started going to a gym.

Now... bleh. I feel super isolated, and given what I was like before, that seems pretty extreme. I feel sad that I haven't done a better job of finding friends. It's bringing up a lot of mental health stuff - how I feel so unable to really be a "normal adult", how everyone else seems to already know how to do this stuff (make friends, be out in the world, manage their careers, etc.) I feel like my world was already very small, and this has just completely closed it down.

I'm hanging on to a couple things. I try to stay in touch with my sister, who is very reasonable and caring, although when we talked yesterday I was so tired, I felt like I was't really holding up my end of the conversation. I'm continuing my piano lessons via Zoom, and my teacher is always supportive and kind, so it's nice to have that contact, even though my motivation to practiced is pretty much gone. I've been doing neurofeedback, so try to reach out to my provider for that... though I'm worried he might be about to drop me.

And, that's it (other than work calls).

I don't know what the answer is. I find "people stuff" incredibly difficult - mostly because it's hard to find people that I really enjoy spending time with in real life, but I guess the bright side of all this is that it's made it VERY clear to me that I need to put more effort into this.

I don't know. Life feels really hard - and I wish I had an amazing therapist to help me figure some of it out, but that's a whole other set of issues for me

Thanks for letting me vent and for creating this topic. I'm sorry that you're struggling too (and that my reply was so one-sided and "me-centered"!)

Hang in there! *hugs* to everyone...