Hope you all are hanging in there alright. In February, I started looking for a new job and was interviewing. Then my state shut down mid-March.

My reason for wanting to leave is my position has evolved into one where the job tasks that I loved are now a minuscule portion of my workday.

I am super grateful to be working, and I feel awful for folks that are struggling financially. The job is not too bad right now, I am in the office 2x a week, telecommuting the rest of the time. I work in a mental health clinic in a big city, there are jobs to be had out there. However, with all this uncertainty it is hard to give up my seniority for a position that may be less secure.

Though my current position is not for sure either. I work for a large employer, but they are losing a lot of money behind this crisis. We've been told there will be no layoffs til 7/1. I think maybe this is all a hope for the best situation, waiting it out. It's like my job is not Mr. Right, but it is Mr. Right now. I'm graduating from college in September, finally getting my BA, which will open up some options.

Unrelated, but also feeling mad that Mental health programs are one the first things on the city's chopping block during budget cuts. I almost lost my job in 2010 due to this. As we all know, mental health treatment is an essential service. With the fallout from Covid, even more so.

This is all bringing up a lot of insecurity around money. I spent most of my adult life financially struggling. Like there have been times when I nearly ran out of money. The fear of everything falling apart again is terrifying.

I think I answered my own question, looking like I'm staying put, and that's OK.

Thanks for reading.