Hi,

I'm not sure what you are saying or if even if you are talking to me but personally I can't let myself slip to a point that only the thought of suicide will take my whole universe. I have a daughter to take care off.

I was programmed to take care of others before myself. Whatever the trouble I am in, the other person goes first. Now I have to brainwash myself what I'm going to do is for my own survival, that it is ok for me to take that step, that if I came to this point, it is because it's the other person who caused me too much pain and now that I have no choice but get away from this person even though I know I will cause him pain. It's this part I have problem with, "I'm going to cause him pain".

Thank you and take good care of yourself.
nightdream