Thanks. I did some other prescription powdered one a long time ago. It was very awful. I remember that taste today, like salted corn starch water and almost as thick.
I got weak at one point and slept in the floor. I don't know if I fell down or passed out or lay myself down. I remember being very tired and dizzy. There's no bruises. But I woke up around 11:30 and had a glass of water. I feel better now. I'm supposed to be at the hospital, waiting in the surgery center parking lot to be called in at 6:45. That's how they're doing it now. That's how it was with the swab.
At least I don't feel hungry. Physically exhausted. Mentally empty. Anxiety isn't as high as it was but it's still up there. My intestines hurt now. My pain levels from not having kratom in days is very high again, as to be expected. I want someone to snuggle but that's not an option with quarantine. I want to hold and be held and to be told it's going to be better soon.