Dear Coffeebooksrain,
I am so very, very sorry that this happened to you. "Traumatic" is a good word for it although there is no word that can convey the pain of these kinds of things. I did suffer something similar in my own life and was devastated for such a long time. The mental scars are still there but lucky they don't really hurt anymore. It is just heartbreaking what you went through. Hopefully these Forums will prove to be helpful to you in you terrible distress. Wish I knew what to say that would help. I hope others here have better words than my poor words. My heart really goes out to you!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen