11 Ways Narcissists and Alcoholics are Similar

I think you need to learn about alcoholism and narcissism as well. I am sorry you are going through this pattern of behavior your husband has you living.

When I learn I am dealing with active alcoholism/binge alcoholism in someone I walk away from the individual so I don't get drawn into their constant DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA and mood swings. A friend told me many years ago, "if you mention alcohol AT ALL, that means there is a PROBLEM".

There is more help NOW with this challenge than there was when I dealt with it 30 plus years ago. You have twins, you deserve to have support for this challenge your husband is presenting you with. You don't deserve to live according to HIS pattern as it's not healthy at all for you.

Don't appologize for needing to vent what you vented. That's concerning that you feel guilt about YOUR needs and feelings. He has made you feel that way about yourself, something BOTH narcissists and alcoholics do. You have become hyper vigilant and always worried about when he will behave badly again. That's not good, you deserve to FEEL SAFE and your twins deserve to have a mommy that isn't all stressed out. I have lived in your shoes, yet my husband did not physically hurt me he did damage things in our home and constantly blamed ME for whatever was not going right. And then there were times he would apologize and tell me he loved me and would be good, that's called the honeymoon stage, but they don't STAY good, they end up binging again. Very unhealthy way to live.