congrats on 115 days!

i usually find myself on some kind of cycle. it happens every two months or so, unless i'm having a bad time and am doing it multiple times a week. i'm currently at 2 months, and the past few weeks i've wanted to self harm intensely. the urges to self harm totally took over and ruined whatever progress i had made in my life. i feel like i'm leaving that mood, but still feeling like it's "time" to self harm again.

i agree it's nice to have self harm to fall back on. i don't know what i'd do without it. self harming is a great comfort to me. i think i am most at one with myself when i self harm. it's an expression on self reliance, i think.