It has to do with my thyroid condition and my thyroid levels not be balanced. I just recovered from Graves' Disease, I'm now hypothyroid and they're trying to figure out my level dosages but it's been taking months and months because it's a slow process. And my acne has been getting worse. It just seems so hopeless. I'm trying everything. I spending tons of money on products hoping they'll help and nothing is helping really. I see my doctor next month and will ask to go on a birth control that can help control hormones and treat acne, but there isn't a whole lot I can do because I'm doing everything possible to treat my skin condition.

I broke down sobbing tonight about it. And I guess I'm weak that it makes me feel so horrible about myself, but it does. I've been trying positive affirmations like I'm a beautiful person inside and out but the minute I look at a mirror and my 12 and more coming in blemishes I just deflate. It's like a battle I just can't win and I feel hopeless right now. I'd try to pick out my other features but all I see is the stuff all of over my face. I'm kind of glad we're wearing masks right now so I can hide my face. I rarely ever take selfies because I don't want anyone else to see me either. I don't think anyone else would find me attractive. It's so discouraging and heartbreaking for me.

I'm going to try and look at those links.