in the show, 1 of the characters died in another character's arms

and that's happened to me

when I was in hospital for an attempt on my life, one of the other women on the ward died in my arms. I remember her reaching out to hold something to feel safe, and that thing was me.

she died their and then, and I didn't know much about her... I just knew her as rachel. we had some previous conversation but not much

it was just really hard watching that yesterday, bringing it all back

I felt so stupid, sitting their shaking and in bits over one of my favorite tv shows, but it was hard. it was really hard, not only to watch that but holding someone when they took their last breath

I can never forget that day

it's hard. really, really hard.