Caitlin, I'm a recovering addict and my drug of choice was cocaine. So boy do I know where you're coming from. I rationalized my choices a million different ways, telling myself that taking out a loan to buy coke was a reasonable thing to do so long as I payed it back. Well, that's insane. I was going into debt to get high and I had a wife and child and we were broke. I didn't care. I'd go off by myself and do it for hours. No sharing for me. It took time and a lot of looking myself in the mirror but eventually I admitted what I'd become. I flushed the remainder of an eight ball down the toilet and left town (to a place where I didn't know a dealer).

I don't know about you but just the thought of doing a line, that cold nose sensation, the medicinal drip in the back of my throat, it makes me yearn for it so badly that I feel I can't help myself. But here's the thing. I've been clean for something like seven years. So I guess it was possible to help myself after all.

I know first hand the hold coke can have on ya so even if you're not addicted, I hope you'll stop using it. It's not worth it.

Cyran0