I've asked myself that but I don't think so. I don't even know if I would tell her if I did relapse. It's more of my parents and the Pastor T and somewhat my Regular T putting a lot of pressure on me to not do X. I think I am ready to be discharged. I am going to miss her because she is super positive and encouraging and I will miss that, but the last call we had was only like 10-15 minutes long because I'm meeting all the goals. There wasn't anything else to say. And when there is nothing to say it's time to go. So I will be okay without her. I'll just miss her.


I just feel all this pressure like I did before I was hospitalized. And I know I can't do X because I will make a mess of it and have to go to the ER and risk being hospitalized again. I can't trust myself to do X so I really need to keep myself in line but all the pressure I'm feeling isn't helping me do that. I kind of need my parents and my Pastor T and my Regular T to back off a bit and not be so pushy about it. But on the other hand, it's like the first time my parents have ever really addressed it also. So I don't want to discourage that. I just need to get used to having so much pressure. Or find a polite way to tell them, enough is enough. IDK.


I'm feeling a bit better now that I've talked through it some here on PC. And I talked to someone at work. I just gotta learn to chill more.

HUGS Kit